"There were 2 farmers who prayed for rain. One prepared his fields, while the other didn't. Whose prayers do you think were answered?" Who got his blessings? Who was prepared to RECEIVE his blessings from heaven (quite literally)?
The movie quoted Rev 3:7-8 He who opens and no one shuts, and shuts and no one opens. I know your works. See, I have set before you an open door, and no one can shut it.
He can open doors, He may even lure you with carrots to walk through the door. But you have to take your own steps, the steps of faith, as they call it.
I guess these belong on twitter, but I was too lazy to type and flood then:
Ah lian kan-ing her (ex?)bf on the phone, all the typical kan-ing quotes of couple quarrel. Her england quite power, err a lot of f.
The couple with the giggly and whiny (dangerously treading on the border of irritating) gf. Lo and behold, she uses iphone. Im so not surprised. Ok, time for bashing and lashing from iphone users.
HHD are not really smelly all the time. They weren't, on the bus today. And strangely, I felt kinda happy for them seeing them with their grocery for the week ahead wahaha!
So anyway, I was looking for my ALL or NOTHING answer today. And I found myself back at: it really doesn't matter.
"Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done. Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are. ..I am Yours"
It is already done and finished. Despite our own short-sightedness, He with the foresight IS the alpha and omega. Makes me spin dizzy just to try wrap my mind around it. Just keep walking.
On impulse, I asked my parents to buy a $2.5mil house. The mother showed me the calculations and how long it would take to pay for the house in full and then I felt immature and irresponsible. Sometimes, I really feel like I NEED to grow up. Stop being so idealistic and living in my bubble of hope. Face it and ride the waves of reality.
This is an old song, I used to listen and think what would be the One Thing that I would really give up everything for. Back in JC, I thought there would be nothing in this world so important that would own me like that.
Randomly heard the song again today and I found my answer. I would give up everything I have, and trade it all to be able to have conversations with God. Good reception in crystal clear quality, thank you very much.
Guess today can be considered one of my suaiest day ever, but still, I feel shalom within me. It is an awesome feeling, despite the suay-ness all around.
0825h: Ear phones spoilt: one down. No mp3, no music. 0841h: Took queue number at the clinic. 0850h: Doodled around with wifi, phone hanged and bloody decided never to on again: two down. Fuck great, now I got nothing to entertain me. Wait wait wait. (1.5hr later) 1010h: Finally managed to get registered. 1030h: x-ray done. Not bad, quite fast. Wait wait wait. (1.5hr later) 1200h: Finally, next station. Eye test, Ht/Wt, blood pressure, urine sample, blood sample. Done, and then MORE WAITING 1230h: I really couldnt stand sitting down doing nothing anymore (by then I had already watched theellenshow and oprah on tv). No handphone, no mp3, no twitter, nothing to read. 1245h: Pacing around. Trying to do physio exercises unnoticed. Out of pure boredom, I prayed that even if this was a test of patience, let time seem to fly and not crawl, provide me with a source of entertainment. 1250h: I can't really remember the time for this, but the next thing I knew after I prayed: I was happily chatting to this other lady and almost bitching about the clinic! HAHAHAHA was like my prayers were answered almost instantaneously! Keeping in mind, it's me, the one who always test waters.
It's almost the end of my story, except that after we had bitched enough, and enough waiting is enough, even when you now have company, we confronted the counter people again and this time they said the doc is out for lunch. Totally restraining myself from punching her on the spot!
Blah blah blah and the rest of the story goes. So the day ended with me chiong-ing down to nokia care centre to check in my 16 day old phone for repairs. Seriously, even if they give me 1 for 1 exchange, my gmask and apps would be wasted. The apps would alreay be gone anyway. KNN! Shall kid no one, and of course I'm fuming today. But beneath that anger, lies a certain soothing feeling. Something unmovable, I can retreat back and lean on.
I've ran out of words and I shall go and sleep. Goooooodnight!
